I want more, pour it out.

Learning to trust is a lesson that I don't really think ever ends. I have more confidence in Christ now than ever before but there are still areas of my life that I haven't given up complete control over. Its as if my grip was so tight for so long that even the Lord's repetitive faithfulness and grace can't loosen the hold completely. I know His plan was(is) better but it's still so difficult to be wrong. "if only you had given me more time to work it out" "I just wish things could have been different." etc, etc. I look at the blessings in my life right now and can't possibly figure out how I got here, with these relationships, these passions and without so many things I thought I needed. This post doesn't really have a point or purpose other than to type what's on my heart and be a testament as always to the worthy God I serve.